rachel is to steve as spinach is to popeye

I don't know whether it is sweet, pathetic or both but I have the hardest time motivating without Rachel. When she leaves for work in the morning, I want to do whatever makes the time go by faster so I can be with her again. This puts a serious cramp in accomplishing anything. I also refuse to allow myself to do anything like watch television or play a video game because I feel guilty with Rachel working so hard. I am excited for my job interview tomorrow and hope that I get it because I am looking forward to having purpose again or at least more purpose. In the meantime, I will battle my demons and try to be of some use.